I remember when I was younger when I would be with cousins and find them old at 24. I somehow had this notion that by 24 you were supposed to be everything that you wanted to be already. And yet here I am, not even close.
I feel old. Really, for the first time I feel that I am... mature. Or at least, supposed to be. I look back at days gone by... Think of them fondly. Like the way old people think of their youth.
Still... There is a lot to be thankful for. Family, friends, love and life. And growing old gracefully. Cheers!
a haven to sort out the inner ramblings of my mind; to record my journey in search for something real...
Monday, September 07, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
365 days later...
Today, we turn 1.
By 1 I mean one year. Which earns me the right to be mushy today. hehe somehow I still find it hard to really put into words how happy I am with Gerard. Probably because he makes me happy in so many ways... I will say this:
He makes me feel a calm and peace within by just knowing I have him.
He is my peace of mind.
When I'm with him, everything- including the biggest of problems, falls away. He has that strength that supports me and makes me feel everything is gonna be alright.
He is sweet and generous.
He is the boyfriend that I always wish I had and never had- until now.
He is the kind of man that cries.
He has a firm hand that can reign me in. But he is also forgiving.
I see him with kids and I know he is going to be a good father.
I feel and am safe when I am with him.
We have fun together. We share books, watch movies... Talk about anything and everything. We laugh together.
By 1 I mean one year. Which earns me the right to be mushy today. hehe somehow I still find it hard to really put into words how happy I am with Gerard. Probably because he makes me happy in so many ways... I will say this:
He makes me feel a calm and peace within by just knowing I have him.
He is my peace of mind.
When I'm with him, everything- including the biggest of problems, falls away. He has that strength that supports me and makes me feel everything is gonna be alright.
He is sweet and generous.
He is the boyfriend that I always wish I had and never had- until now.
He is the kind of man that cries.
He has a firm hand that can reign me in. But he is also forgiving.
I see him with kids and I know he is going to be a good father.
I feel and am safe when I am with him.
We have fun together. We share books, watch movies... Talk about anything and everything. We laugh together.
We adore each other.
He holds my hand and whispers sweet words into my ear.
He has mood swings. He can be elitista sometimes. But he is generally kind.
He is NOT perfect. He has his moments. But today I find them irrelevant. For I have found a good man. And above all else, that man loves me for me.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
how bout a round of applause... (rihanna style)
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
back in the city...
My gosh it's been a while... I've been reading everybody else's blog today and I realized I am so behind... There have been a lot of things to write about... I got a job, Sinulog, Valentines day...
At least I have a valid reason: I was in training. And in one word it was ugtos. But I'm done with it and thankfully, I passed. =)
Well, what else... Oh yeah, Valentine's Day.
For the first time in years, I actually looked forward to it. Gerard came to Cebu and well, need I say more? haha
Guys, let's keep blogging. Ramblings will do. I mean, we don't really need to make literary essays to keep each other posted. Dava? hehehe
Aling Jello, ikaw nang naay wagi na laptop. Og mahimo... hehehehehehe And mam mich, I like one liner blogs kaya... hehehehe So let's keep it up. Promise I won't lag behind. =)
Sigh... It really feels different this time around... The last time I was in Cebu, I had no direction. Except maybe the ones goin to Vudu or some such place. When I think about that time, I don't even know what I was thinking. All I remember was that I just wanted to have fun. Which ultimitely led to downfalls. I was literally floating through a fog of confusion. In short, LOST.
Nowadays, I walk with a purpose. I guess I can say I've become grounded. Admittedly, it's thanks largely to my boyfriend. He keeps me in check. And every day, I feel good about being able to really do things on my own. To have this job (no matter how mediocre it is for some people) and earn money so that I can one day have enough to own my own business and NOT work. That's really all I want. Harhar. But yeah... That's just it for now...
Meanwhile, here's somethin I've been listenin to... Enjoy...
xoxo
Make It Mine - Jason Mraz
At least I have a valid reason: I was in training. And in one word it was ugtos. But I'm done with it and thankfully, I passed. =)
Well, what else... Oh yeah, Valentine's Day.
For the first time in years, I actually looked forward to it. Gerard came to Cebu and well, need I say more? haha
Guys, let's keep blogging. Ramblings will do. I mean, we don't really need to make literary essays to keep each other posted. Dava? hehehe
Aling Jello, ikaw nang naay wagi na laptop. Og mahimo... hehehehehehe And mam mich, I like one liner blogs kaya... hehehehe So let's keep it up. Promise I won't lag behind. =)
Sigh... It really feels different this time around... The last time I was in Cebu, I had no direction. Except maybe the ones goin to Vudu or some such place. When I think about that time, I don't even know what I was thinking. All I remember was that I just wanted to have fun. Which ultimitely led to downfalls. I was literally floating through a fog of confusion. In short, LOST.
Nowadays, I walk with a purpose. I guess I can say I've become grounded. Admittedly, it's thanks largely to my boyfriend. He keeps me in check. And every day, I feel good about being able to really do things on my own. To have this job (no matter how mediocre it is for some people) and earn money so that I can one day have enough to own my own business and NOT work. That's really all I want. Harhar. But yeah... That's just it for now...
Meanwhile, here's somethin I've been listenin to... Enjoy...
xoxo
Make It Mine - Jason Mraz
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
here we go
I just love the message of this song. And it just seems apt for my NOW.
Man In The Mirror - Michael Jackson
Man In The Mirror - Michael Jackson
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Friday, January 02, 2009
happy new year!
For all the hype of 2008, what with the beijing olympics and all, it was pretty dismal. Global economy crashed, calamities everywhere, and our family went into our own financial recession.
I always have mixed emotions whenever new years come around. Another year is, of course, a blessing. But then you get older and the anxiety of what this year will bring cannot be ignored. Although in the end, optimism is the best attitude to assume.
And what of the year that was? Somehow, new years always make us want to take stock of our lives. Which is, most of the time a most tedious and even depressing thing to do. So I conveniently skipped all the drama. haha It's a new year. Come what may.
2008 wasn't so bad... After all, I met Gerard in 08. I fell in love and am in a healthy relationship for the first time ever. hehehe
It's weird how the older we get, the less festive and exciting and happy the holidays are. But still, we make do with what we have. Hopefully, 2009 will be a better year for all of us.
So for now, cheers to the year that was and the year ahead! Happy New Year everyone!!!
xoxo
I always have mixed emotions whenever new years come around. Another year is, of course, a blessing. But then you get older and the anxiety of what this year will bring cannot be ignored. Although in the end, optimism is the best attitude to assume.
And what of the year that was? Somehow, new years always make us want to take stock of our lives. Which is, most of the time a most tedious and even depressing thing to do. So I conveniently skipped all the drama. haha It's a new year. Come what may.
2008 wasn't so bad... After all, I met Gerard in 08. I fell in love and am in a healthy relationship for the first time ever. hehehe
It's weird how the older we get, the less festive and exciting and happy the holidays are. But still, we make do with what we have. Hopefully, 2009 will be a better year for all of us.
So for now, cheers to the year that was and the year ahead! Happy New Year everyone!!!
xoxo
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